Finding thy purpose…

Life, Experiences, Situations, People, Strangers, and everything else around teaches something profound and concrete … something that we take with us and go about doing our usual chores each day… 

Many say we are here in this life with purpose and we need to find it someday… to truly understand what we are made for…!!! Still in real life can u name at least 10 people whom you know, who have found out what they are made out for?

More often than not, the ruggedness of life gets onto everyone … everyone has to go through the cycle of responsibilities, duties, sacrifices, adjustments, compromises in their life…no one is spared from that… only thing that differs is the amount in which each one does that. 

Getting to know your own true self is something that not many can accomplish in one’s life…societal theories, peer pressures or religious dogma you can call it anything you want… are the forces which most certainly stops one from getting up close with one’s own self..!!! But then leaving behind these barriers and obstacles some does reach that point of pinnacle wherein the fear to face one’s self, its needs, its dreams and its wishes vanish…and ultimate bliss sets in…!!! 

Putting up a mask and performing on the world stage to someone else’s tunes is by far something that we all do to some extent in our lives. Human mind and psyche is programmed to think about society, its norms, its cultures, and slowly this ability to think about society and the world at large sets in, in our day to day living too…!!  We can easily recollect incidents where in we have done something just for the heck of doing it…at least I can in all my sincerity and honesty can accept that yes I have done few(read many) things just because someone else was doing it, or it just looked cool to do it…!! But as they say life is the biggest teacher one can ever get in one’s life…. as we meet new people…see new places…get new experiences… we evolve… and slowly and steadily every individual ultimately carves out his/her own identity in this world!! A point reaches in one’s life wherein being compared to someone else just seems shallow…and individual goals and milestones is all that ultimately matters… 

Is finding your own purpose any different???

Peace… gets a new meaning…!!!!

Busy office schedule relaxes a bit… evening sky is visible again…window seat which seemed far from true beckons almost giving out a seducing glance…wheels pick up speed… body frame collapses in the chair and the chilling windy air cuts through the hair locks making them feel alive… the vehicular noises fade away…as the music starts connecting within…

Beats and the rhythm touché the heart … the pulse starts racing…and unintentionally music player belts out that very song…you close your eyes to feel it…and in a twitch of a second … you see the face…you jolt out of your trance…look around… everything is same around but still you feel there is amiss… … as if something holds back and something races past both at the same time…you want to stop right at that moment…and feel it…live it… cherish it… once again…but you don’t listen to your heart and instead change the song in the music player…but the face never leaves your sight….

Something hidden deep in the heart  comes to the fore…long lost memories rush back to life…faces and their characters take shapes … in an instant it seems to be some other world… which originated… which lived years ago…. which still breathes inside…

You get lost in an era you had lived before… the monochromatic shades of life create a splash…the portraits of life runs a trailer…You wish for another chance in life… to undo few things… to redo some others… you were someone else then…and forever wanted to be someone else…yet you will not want to change many things in that past….for those memories… those moments… those episodes made you … YOU!!! Pleasant surprises… unpleasant decisions….happy occasions … eager confessions…and sad endings…it is as if the train of past events has just approached your heart’s station…your mind questions why now??? After you have changed so much …but only your heart knows that the exterior changes haven’t changed the inner YOU…!!!

Stress mounts in eye nerves and makes you to stop staring unknowingly…you touch the moist corner of the eyes…and wipe out that one building tear…you look around to make sure no one saw you doing that…and in fraction of seconds…the whole army of tears starts invading…you try and look out of window as long as possible… hoping that the windy breeze would wipe out this river…but one salty tear still manages to touch your lips…you don’t like its taste for it makes you feel weak again…after some eternal time the flooding river finally dries up …setting in the drought of lifeless emotions…twilight sky matches the redness that has transcended in the eyes…but you look unperturbed…as you finally feel light…

As you walk back home…you see the same children playing in the grounds…the same vegetable vendor going about his daily chores…but they don’t make a pleasant evening picture to you today…… you are lost in your thoughts…still finding the reason behind all that had happened…the honking vehicle that passes by brings you back to reality …and you see your home approaching….you remind yourself of your duties…a face again takes shape before you…this time a smile starts building around your lips…’you got your reason’…to smile for someone else there…and make the living worthy…with every approaching staircase… you think of all the topics to talk on…put on that smiling mask and yet again get ready to play your part…..

Life indeed is playing your part to the T…someone did for you… and you doing it for THAT someone now….this thought leaves you at peace… amidst chaos… you have found THAT someone ….the ‘gone’ doesn’t matter much ….for the ‘one’ that matters is right besides you medicating your wound when you tripped over the staircase while coming back HOME…

I wanna learn .. on my own..!!!

Sometimes I wonder how much spoon feeding should be done to a child…how much comfort zone should be provided to a child…

Ofcourse a parent takes care of his/her child but there is a very blur line that seperates care from spoon feeding. Care of a parent lies in making sure that child gets whatever he wishes for but at the same time learns from his/her mistakes and builds his/her own experience tree…while spoon feeding lies in making sure that the child gets whatever he/she wishes for while benefitting from the experience tree built by his/her parent…!!! A spoon fed child may lead a perfectly spotless life but maybe take that child out of his/her comfort zone and he/she may fumble big time…

Would like to live you with a line read somewhere:-

“Manzil to mil hi jayegi mujhe ek din chahe bhatak kar hi sahi… Gumrah to woh log he jo ghar se nikle hi nahi …”

A piece of life….revisited..!!!!

Not all soft songs touch your heart… but then there are few ones that leave an indelible mark!! More so, because you connect to that particular song with not only the lyrics, music piece, and enchanting voice of singer but because they remind you of some sweet memories in your life…they remind you of the time well spent…

There are many ones that strike a chord with me…

Aadat by Jal has a very fond memory … In our annual cultural event, one of my friends at college had sung Aadat and the way he sang it, it almost seemed like he meant each and every word that he was singing…at the end of it almost everyone in the arena had Goosebumps… even today whenever I hear Aadat by aatif, all my ears listen is my friend’s voice…n yes those Goosebumps they still there.. .very much there!!!

‘Na jaane kabse umeede kuch baki hai….Mujhe fir bhi teri yaad… kyuuunn aati hai…’

It used to take me almost 2 hours one way everyday to reach home from college during my initial 2 years of engineering life. Along the way there was a 10 mins long water stretch while travelling beyond Vashi. One song that gave me an apt company everyday along that route was Maula mere from Anwar- a masterpiece is all I can say about that song…A perfect amalgamation of RoopKumar Rathod’s voice, tune, lyrics, and godly chores…and to add to it… the expanse of sea while listening to it made the journey purely divine!!! Although I listen to that sing more often in my car stereo now, I am still instantly taken back to those train days …when those 10 minutes would mean utter serenity!!!

‘meraa dil yahi bolaa, meraa dil yahi bolaa,
yaara raaj yeh usane hai mujh par kholaa
ki hai ishq mohabbat, jiske dil mein
usko pasand karta hai maulaa’

College canteen was the ultimate place where the whole group would retire after sustaining through the dry lectures…!!! When sun had already begun on its drowning journey…and twilight is about to set in… It was perfect time for Lucky Ali to come out of closet and enchant me with his compositions…!!! Along the way back, when I had shifted to my new house which was around 20 mins away from my college, Scooty-Pep, twilight sky and Lucky Ali… was all I yearned for..!!!

‘Anjaani Rahon me tu kya dhundta chale.. duur jisko samjha woh toh paas hai tere…’

The ultimate romantic song for me can be none other than ‘tujhe dekha toh yeh jana sanam…’ why?? I am a huge shahrukh fan although he may not churn out hits anymore… but DDLJ is special, Shahrukh is special!!! And more special is the way I have seen the movie DDLJ at the tender age of 11 yrs…!!! We (friends) took stall tickets in black for 20 rupees to see this movie and sat in first row of the stall to see this film…!! It was grand… of course it would be, any film would be if you sit in that row of any theatre…it’s the first ever romantic film I have seen in the theatre…although the word ’romance’ didn’t mean anything then…!! But Shahrukh was etched in my mind with his splendid hat and leather jackets and the oh-so famous cow bell..!!!! I still remember I had almost harassed my mom for getting me a similar cow bell..!!! So one thing is sure… If my guy has to woo me he has to sing this song to me… no matter what!!!! No one knows romance better than Shahrukh Khan (who thinks?? I think so…)!!!

‘tujhe dekha toh yeh jaana sanam… Pyaar hota hai deewana sanam..’

Reason for this post is I was in for a treat today… After a long while, I tuned into these songs… and I was instantly taken away to an era which had passed by… which may not revert back ever but which still smells afresh like it has been just yesterday…

Anything for my girl…

Once back from office…all he could think of was some moments of rest…

But, she was getting cranky…she wanted him to spend more time with her… wanted to feel that she means family to him…

He sensed her discomfort…and took her out… she held onto his hand tightly, as if never want to let it go…

He was ready to do anything for one glimpse of her smiling face…

She spotted a helium balloon vendor at the crossroads…and demanded balloons from him…

She was mesmerised to see big colourful helium balloons that went up on loosening the thread and came down on tightening it…

He readily took those balloons for her and put his hand in pocket to get some cash…

At that very moment his grip over the balloon thread loosened and up went the balloons… he jumped and tried to get back the thread…but in vain…balloons went up…Up and up…

He thought of buying another set of balloons for her… But she stopped him…

He could see her smile and she was utterly pleased….

She loved the thought that those balloons were free and that she was the reason for them to be so…

And she said to him-‘Dad, they look beautiful up there and not in my hand…’

For her… she experienced her ‘we’ time with her dad….

And for the single Dad in him…the day was made…!!!

 

(https://verne10.wordpress.com/2010/11/13/anything-for-my-girl/)