His Libran Girlfriend…

“Rip it off… throw it off… I don’t want to deal with it… it makes me go nuts…why can’t for once in life you decide something??? ” and bang hits the door….!!! She noticed that he left the room..!!!!

 

She pondered …is it that simple? Am I a moron to take so long to decide??? She thought that its time she should think about what she really wants??? But she didn’t know what she was all like? What was her true self…???  What was she really really like??? Alright she thought… good direction to start with…what am I like?

 

She noted few bullet points:

Sweet

Smiling

Loves arts

Creative

Slightly short tempered…

Balanced person

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Hell No, this is not a matrimonial ad page…. Alright then… on I go…let me try and make sense….

I don’t want options…I want answers…I don’t want possibilities… I want circumstances…I hate contemplating… I like agreeing…I hate dilemma I like decisions…

Might someone help me do it…I want to learn more…I want to learn it one more time…Powers of decisions… that make you feel satisfied… I want to experience one…

I like balancing… I like peace… the soothing music of rains makes me serene…

The more I share… the more I gain (not weight …: O)…its gives me pleasure beyond words can spare…you start a topic and leave rest to me… then I can take you through all its ups and downs…talk for hours and still say … you know what, there is so much I want to tell you about!!! Talk less listen more… Mom says too… but what to do? Can’t help… the Libran nose can hardly stop poking…

You ask me whether u r fat???? I would say …. Well, best part is u r looking great today… not this diplomatic every time… you do something wrong and ask me whether you were right… I would say you are grown up now… but then, if you coax me further and a honest reply is what you seek….I would say maybe you should reconsider your stand…I won’t call spade a spade…but neither would I call it a magic wand….making justice at each step is what I am born for!!!

Money is important…it gives security and balance….but spending it the way you want, gives meaning to your hard earned money. If I go to mall, Yes I spend…how much? Well never kept a tab of it…dressing to the detail is my forte…accessories, footwear everything should be coordinated… well, yes coordination is my other name!!!

Things happen my way and I am content… planned things take place and I get confident…but when everything seems different…no plan works out…no decision is right… gloominess phases in and my demons surround me. I don’t like them, for they make me weak..I want to knuckle them…kill them…shoot them… but they keep growing stronger…this is the point where I need someone who could see me through this…fortunately  I have people with me…they like me… they adore me.. They love me…they respect me…and life becomes manageable…

You criticize me… and I won’t take it nicely…you explain me and I would admire you throughout my life…I get influenced so don’t  try and shuffle my mind thousand times… you may piss me off that way …

A healthy amalgamation of style and panache…. I can hardly bore you…look in my eyes and you will be mesmerized …look to what I talk and you will be intrigued… they don’t call me party person for anything…they don’t call me live wire for anything…

Get me on an activity and I would be one amongst the buddies…get me to a candle light dinner…and you would see me blushing…get me to a movie theatre and you will have to keep an extra handkerchief ready…

I see dreams…I live them… I make characters that forever live a part of me…some dreams transcend into reality and I am overjoyed…others don’t see light of day …but then who cares …I forget those dreams the moment I wake up…

More than gifts, affection wins me… (Not that I don’t take gifts… of course I love taking them…) but I can sniff the fallacy the moment I look into your eyes…so beware… if you don’t mean it don’t say you love me forget about gift…well I won’t kill you… c’mon who wants to go to jail…but respect once gone is hardly a retake shot!!! Be true to yourself… and I would be all coy in your arms… dreamy to the core …romance is something which you will never have to teach me… have faith and I can move mountains for you… with that dialogue now you know why I am called dreamy and romantic to the core!!!

“Moments are never special… you ought to make them one…” I live by this… walk by this… survive by this…so, don’t worry about surprises there will be plenty… of course they would be pleasant!!! And receiving surprises… well, it’s my favorite past time 🙂

I love being with people… I need them… my emotional design collapses with desertion and loneliness… I need strong arms that can protect, embrace and hug…I need a smile daily to make believe that things are fine…Don’t worry, I am not that complicated …whatever I ask you to do I would do that 10 times more for you…you ask for promise??? I give you my word..!!! Life is not easy I know…but I try and maintain balance that I am an expert at!!!

At decision making… let me falter sometimes… don’t expect me to take razor sharp and crystal decisions … give me my time and I would come into my own… but it’s okay yaar I just take more time to gather information for that decision…simple!!!

I forever ask God to Give me that power …I need it right now… than any other time in my life….Just once in my life I want to be sure…I want to be certain… I want to be bang on….My decision is right… my decision is fine… let somebody tell me that this is something that was always in my sight…well I know what I want… but far too many routes makes the story long…and I don’t know which route is better… which is clear.. Which one is dear and which one is to fear!!!

Husshhh!!! She said… so this is what I am..!!!! Gosh….. 2 full pages of word document…!!!! Okay so is this really me? Or whatever I wrote before??? But now, I guess bullet points are easy to analyze and help take decision… but what about this description?? Maybe I can ask him… who among these am I? Maybe… It’s high time…!!! Alright….I should only decide…

 

But then….bullet points…. Yeah maybe…

 

Naah… the description is bang on….

Aargh!!!! Maybe I should think over this after sometime… or should I directly ask him???

Forget…maybe the answer will pop up just like that…maybe I should go have a coffee and think over this… oh yes I didn’t write in description that I love coffee….hmmm that means description is right… hmmm maybe…!!!

So I am indecisive huh!!!!  so he wanted to say that I am indecisive??? Of course not… I can take decisions… maybe coffee first…!!!!

 

 

 

P.S:- no intentions to hurt any Libran person…its one from the series I am writing on zodiacs and the people…so if any coincidence found with any person dead or alive it’s okay.. Be considerate to them….Being Libran is not a joke!!!!

P.S2:- everything here is what I have observed in most of the Librans I have met till date… there can be exceptions….so plz dont search for my head…

 

Onset of Eurotrip…!!!!

The day was fixed 1st June 2010…. I was to visit my brother in Brussels, Belgium and take euro trip (ahem…not like movie ‘eurotrip’ … but family vacation) with my bro, bhabi and her sister. A day before that I was getting all nervous because it was going to be 12 hours of flight journey… my first ever foreign trip…plus I was doing it solo…. it was too much of ‘first times’ that it made me uneasy and anxious both at the same time..!!!!

My nervousness eased out with nice and buzzing Mumbai airport that made me to temporarily forget the first flight stomach cramps!!!! Unlike whatever I had heard about the stomach crunching when aircraft makes a takeoff…I suffered nothing..!!!! Disappointed??? Well to certain extent yes… the thrill part of my journey wasn’t thrilling at all..!!! Sigh…!!! But, Swiss Airlines made sure I had a gala time in the flight with hordes of movies, games; TV series at my disposal throughout the journey. Food though, wasn’t all tasty but it was ok!!! After almost 8 hours of journey I had reached Zurich…the beautiful city in Switzerland that left my mouth wide open!!! With a chilling 9 degrees Celsius it was not only windy but it was raining cats n dogs there and the whole of Zurich looked totally mesmerising and chic!!! It reminded me of Shahrukh-Kajol’s DDLJ and the uber cool Swiss panorama in the background!!! Sigh … I couldn’t stay there longer since I had my connecting flight in 2 hours to Brussels -the European Union Capital and home to my brother.

My first impression of Brussels was – that it is too fussy with so many trams, metros, trains that you need to change while going from one destination to other. But, on the contrary it seemed cake walk as days went by and soon became part of my life there. Crossing roads only at zebra crossing, walking only on the footpath was something that appealed me instantly and I was glad to see everyone following this unlike in Mumbai!!!! (Comparing it with India was not intentional… but it happened inadvertently)

Burners gave way to hot-plates, Rotis to freezed chapatis from supermarket; tap water to toilet papers…Europe was different in so many ways…

Two things about bro’s apartment amazed me…first that it had 2 main doors one with password and the other with special key which was distributed to each tenant and the other thing that the apartment had no fans!!! What the hell!!! No fans…???? Yes… hence no constant sound of fan overhead and silence to its height that made clock ticking sound almost like an era is changing…!!!!

Getting out of house at 11 in the night one can easily expect a nice dark night with only ice cream parlours operating to make few extra moolahs from people who are out for after- dinner stroll. But, in Brussels picture was slightly different. Ice cream parlours were same and after-dinner strolls were also there but the thing that stood out was that at 11 in the night, Brussels was all lit up with evening sky with sun just starting to make its descend . JubelPark of Brussels looked stunning at that time and we just couldn’t stop ourselves from taking pictures of us with its background…

First day in Europe went down with lot of surprises and shocks and I was all ready to face a new day in Europe.

Short Story: The home-coming

She forgot her cousin’s b’day…she didn’t realize that it was Saturday and hence no school work…she didn’t understand a word on television even though it was airing her fav series…& she didn’t realize that it was almost 6 in the evening and she was  still sitting idly on the couch, watching television  since morning 11…

Where was she???

What the hell was wrong with her..??? Was she slowly turning into a big jumbo nerd or bozo..???? Or was it that, she was simply not in herself..??? But why??? Maybe because, he was returning back after almost 3 months!!!  What crappy reason is this, she thought. Crappy – to the extent that it scared the hell outta her…Was he the reason?

Why then sitting in front of TV, all she could think of was him??? And about the whole lot of things and conversations that had happened between them…she must be super jerk for sure, she concluded.

She quickly got up and went for the shower with the hope that, it will clear out the clutter that’s on in her mind. Changing into her evening gear, she thought of having some fun time with her dogs but seemed nobody was interested, what with her dogs already tired and not in mood to play around.

Deep down inside she was not at ease… something inside was hurting, pulling her down. She was all worried for him and his safe travel. She desperately hoped that everything goes perfectly fine with him, that he remains untouched from any worries and problems. She was even secretly praying to Lord that “let him be fine, let him be in good shape, let him have all the joys in life”. For once, she was eagerly waiting for the night to come – when he was supposed to come to her place.

His presence had some magnetic aura that simply pulled her towards him every time. She loved talking to him, loved listening to him. She liked the twinkle in his eye when he said anything funny and smiled like a million bucks!!! She loved a slight wrinkle that would appear every time he would frown at her. She always thought that there was something in her that was so much like him…and she could also find traces of her in him… For an orphan like Gracie, Albert was all she had!!!

The very thought of his comeback was so pleasing her that she got far removed from reality and lost in her past life that they had together. For Albert, she was his source of light, which would enlighten his path towards happiness and survival; she was the only reason why he was still alive after massive accident in his 4o’s.  While for her, Albert meant Family, Belonging, and her only Relation!  Roger tried hard to pacify her and make her concentrate on pleasant things but nothing seemed to work on her troubled psyche.

 Work had brought her to Milan 3 months back but their parting was painful for both. She was worried for him, since it was his first ever trip from far away land to Milan. She never meant to desert him this way, but he convinced her that they shall remain in touch and would visit each other. With a heavy heart she had moved out of his house and settled in Milan. But, now the day had come she was eagerly waiting for, 2 days later there was wedding!!!

She was thrilled and worried both at the same time. He was to travel 18 hours by flight to reach her. The very thought of flight journey made her uncomfortable. All ill thoughts about his flight journey would clog her mind and she would fight hard to unclog it and concentrate on her daily chores. This kept happening the whole day!!!

 Finally clock struck 10 in the night and there stood Albert at the doorstep waiting eagerly to hug her. Seeing Albert, Gracie ran at once and hugged him tight… his fragile body warmed with her love!! Roger too joined them and Gracie at once announced …. “Now my family is complete!!! With my grandpa by my side, Roger, now you can ask me out officially!!!”

(you can view this on : https://verne10.wordpress.com/2010/05/03/short-story-the-home-coming/)

Dusting mah life..!!!

Weekend time approaches … and we often hear “folks… What on weekend?? What’s on ur mind????”

Ahem…well, expecting decent replies to it…I assume most of us would either answer with – a short trip along with friends or family… or might go on shopping spree … or might just go about watching plays in theatres or movie … or some might just cook to their hearts content and enjoy the delicacies, etc. That is, the possibilities are abundant …and finally, there is also one such activity that, we females are too fond of, which we are totally paranoid about… No man…not the beauty treatments … its DUSTING!!!

Dusting the furniture, dusting the table tops, dusting the couch, dusting the vases, dusting the center table…phew!!! We act like programmed robots when weekends arrive!!! Our aim for Sunday is almost always to achieve a spank clean house in fear that someone might drop in anytime and see the cluttered stuff!!!! We toil for so long …sometimes even stretching to last drop of energy in the body that we finish the rest of the day only sleeping and resting!!!

And finally, as the day nears closure we often question… Where did the time go???

I didn’t write a single word, nor did I listen to my favorite music…. I didn’t catch up with my friends either…I had planed so many things for this weekend but I ended up only dusting my life!!!

 On weekdays I spend time listening to bosses, making decisions, slogging at workplace, making the code work and what I did on the weekends was slog even more!!!!

We often in life get entangled in typical loser announcements of: “Where is the time to do what we really want to do…?” but is it really, the time which is culprit or our so programmed human brain and psyche???

Is this that, I wanted to do in my life??? NO…NEVER!!!!

I wanted to write poetries, wanted to sit idly staring at periwinkles admiring them… I wanted to plant lilies in my garden… wanted to go trekking in Himalayas…at least go to nearby resort and spa center to relax and rejuvenate ….I wanted to relax on couch reading and sipping coffee…

But where did my weekend go????

We often spend much of the time beautifying the externalities that, we feel people recognize us with, in process often forgetting the fact that it’s in fact the soul made up of likes and dislikes, hobbies and activities, contributions and participations that gets etched in human psyche!!!

Lot of self introspection led me to realize  that people who mattered to me  dropped in at my home not to check the maker of my couch, color of my walls or my  new curtains… but they dropped in to know what was I upto? What is it that is keeping me busy these days??? What more hilariously funny I did in recent times… What is it that made me blue in this week…on and on!!!!

They knew me more for my dancing, for my writing, for my one-liner filmy dialogues, for my sometimes absolute nonsense concepts … yet they would drop in to know more of me… yes ME!!! Not about non living things that I owned or possessed. Nowhere my dusting the couch got appreciated nor got my dusting the tables noticed…!!!! But my first try at driving did…my first try at salsa did… my first try at still photography did… my first try at film making did…. My first try at cooking did..!!!!

Not all reactions were positive, what with cooking being low on score… but my folks had curiosity listening to it..!!!! They wanted to laugh to their heart’s content, they wanted to give their expert opinions… they wanted to try too…!!! Most important they wanted to live that moment with me…!!!

Life is all about living, spreading and cherishing…they made me realize it!!! And slowly the paranoid in me stopped getting panic attacks with the announcement of the “guest time”!

Now DUSTING is no longer my aim… but an activity that comes with the tag “should be done or not …left at individual’s discretion”.

Indeed life is all about how much you SCATTER… than GATHER..!!!! 😀

(btw.. just out of curiosity… when we clean our furntiture and house… why is it , that we call it … DUSTING??? wherein we actually are cleaning it..!!! 😛 😛 :P)

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” Its the possibility of having a dream come true… that makes life interesting!!! “

                                                                                                                                                     

 -Paulo Coelho